FYI...The cheesecake was A-mazing! :-D L loved it and I'll be surprised if its not half gone when I get home.
My post yesterday was filled with complete randomness yesterday so I'm sorry for that but it felt good to just let my fingers spill out everything that I've been holding inside for 19 years. Thanks to those of you who took the time to read and comment, I have a new found confidence in my blog and have even built a little self esteem from it. :-D The fact that I let it out and no one had judgement and they actually understand makes me wonder if maybe I didn't judge other people a little too soon. Maybe I'm a little bit of a hypocrite. Either way, thank you!!
School is finally coming to an end for the semester...thank goodness! I've decided to take the summer off. There's just too much going on right now to have to worry about reading books and doing homework or studying for tests. I'm definitely going to take a math class next semester because that's the only thing that (for some odd reason) calms me down and makes my mind focus. Plus, its always come easy to me so it'll make for a less stressful year. I suppose I'll have to put an English on there somewhere and some form of psychology.
I'm going through a phase right now and I'm not that happy about it. For some reason, I have these random "phases" that make me like or dislike something or maybe just be more drawn to a certain kind of something. Right now, its music. I LOVE all kinds of music (can't play that good, only some piano) but I can't get enough of music. I will have times where I'll only want to hear a certain genre or something but now, nothing is good. :-( that sucks. Hopefully this passes soon.
My mom is actually moving. She never stops surprising me. She's leaving my brother (16) here ALONE and moving to Washington DC. The fact that she sees nothing wrong with this only solidifies my view of her as a selfish B**** who only cares about money and her third child (who brings in all the money). How am I just seeing this now? That's a fantastic question. I suppose I've always seen it just never wanted to admit that my own MOTHER was a crappy one. I've finally come to terms with that fact though and I've told her that as long as she decides to be with that piece of s*** man, she has no place in my life. In turn, she told me the same of L but to be honest, I got the better hand in that one. At least I'll be happy while she's cheated on and he does who knows what to other GIRLS! She deserves it after what she did to me. That's for sure. The only problem is...I still love her. I'll never stop loving her but I don't love what she does or how she acts however, I will never not care about her. I DO hope that one day she will wake up and actually get to have a happy life.
-KMay
My post yesterday was filled with complete randomness yesterday so I'm sorry for that but it felt good to just let my fingers spill out everything that I've been holding inside for 19 years. Thanks to those of you who took the time to read and comment, I have a new found confidence in my blog and have even built a little self esteem from it. :-D The fact that I let it out and no one had judgement and they actually understand makes me wonder if maybe I didn't judge other people a little too soon. Maybe I'm a little bit of a hypocrite. Either way, thank you!!
School is finally coming to an end for the semester...thank goodness! I've decided to take the summer off. There's just too much going on right now to have to worry about reading books and doing homework or studying for tests. I'm definitely going to take a math class next semester because that's the only thing that (for some odd reason) calms me down and makes my mind focus. Plus, its always come easy to me so it'll make for a less stressful year. I suppose I'll have to put an English on there somewhere and some form of psychology.
I'm going through a phase right now and I'm not that happy about it. For some reason, I have these random "phases" that make me like or dislike something or maybe just be more drawn to a certain kind of something. Right now, its music. I LOVE all kinds of music (can't play that good, only some piano) but I can't get enough of music. I will have times where I'll only want to hear a certain genre or something but now, nothing is good. :-( that sucks. Hopefully this passes soon.
My mom is actually moving. She never stops surprising me. She's leaving my brother (16) here ALONE and moving to Washington DC. The fact that she sees nothing wrong with this only solidifies my view of her as a selfish B**** who only cares about money and her third child (who brings in all the money). How am I just seeing this now? That's a fantastic question. I suppose I've always seen it just never wanted to admit that my own MOTHER was a crappy one. I've finally come to terms with that fact though and I've told her that as long as she decides to be with that piece of s*** man, she has no place in my life. In turn, she told me the same of L but to be honest, I got the better hand in that one. At least I'll be happy while she's cheated on and he does who knows what to other GIRLS! She deserves it after what she did to me. That's for sure. The only problem is...I still love her. I'll never stop loving her but I don't love what she does or how she acts however, I will never not care about her. I DO hope that one day she will wake up and actually get to have a happy life.
-KMay
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